32/365 John Updike

John Updike passed away this past week and during Prairie Home Companion (one of my favorite radio shows) Garrison Keillor read one of his old pieces. 

There was a time when I wondered why more people did not go to church. Taken purely as a human recreation, what could be more delightful, more unexpected than to enter a venerable and lavishly scaled building kept warm and clean for us one or two hours a week and to sit and stand in unison and sing and recite creeds and petitions that are like paths worn smooth in the raw terrain of our hearts? To listen, or not listen, as a poorly paid but resplendently robed man strives to console us with scraps of ancient epistles and halting accounts, hopelessly compromised by words, of those intimations of divine joy that are like pain in that, their instant gone, the mind cannot remember or believe them; to witness the windows donated by departed patrons and the altar flowers arranged by withdrawn hands and the whole considered spectacle lustrous beneath its patina of inheritance; to pay, for all this, no more than we are moved to give—surely in all democracy there is nothing like it. 

Indeed, it is the most available democratic experience. We vote less than once a year. Only in church and at the polls are we actually given our supposed value, the soul-unit of one, with its noumenal arithmetic of equality: one equals one equals one. 

(From John Updike, Pigeon Feathers and Other Stories, Knopf, 1962, p. 249.)

Ahh, to find that church were you are given your supposed value, where one does equal one. The same one that sits next to you, preaches from the pulpit, sweeps between the pews and balances the checkbook. I thought I had experienced it before and maybe I had. Maybe someday I will again.